Here I Stand
Here I stand before me
At the edge of who I was
Between the person I used to be
And the one I could become.
If only I had more courage
And trusted my gut
To let go and step into the unknown
To be someone I was not.
Someone I would admire
Someone I would respect
A person who understands that
Self-love can overcome neglect.
If only I could break the cage
That enslaves my mind alone.
The only way I see me do it
Is by exposing my own soul.
That vulnerability shown to others
May come with abuse and control
But if you lead with eyes and mind open
You might just protect your soul.
Because..doubt not – some will try to step on it
But preparation is the key
To be ready to deflect the kicks.
Awareness and adjusting to reality
Acceptance of what you see and feel
Keeping your heart and mind guarded –
These will help you deal.
I don’t want you to feel sorry
Nor I want to victimize
I have just a single worry –
To understand me will these words suffice?
I see a win-win situation:
I share with you, you resonate with me.
Either way I will present
The only truth I now see
From my perspective, shaped by what I have been through
Maybe someone understands or says A-ha! I knew it too!
I just couldn’t put it into words
Until my mind rested a bit,
Cooled down from all the overthinking
And showed anxiety the exit.
It may sound arrogant
But I’m proud of what I think
Not that much to be obnoxious
Not that little to be unheard.
I just want to find my people
Who need a break from all the hurt.
In the end I found the answers
To the questions that tormented me
Had a pretty steep price to pay
But then, i wouldn’t be writing poetry.
I just hope to find the readers
Who can enjoy what I have to say
I heal and grow as I write
And continue my journey from darkness to light.
Here I stand before you,
I open my mind and heart and wish to share
I hope you may find some comfort
In knowing that someone who understands is there.